On Being 20-Something in 2017

Jul. 8th, 2017 12:23 pm
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A common exercise with my friends produced a question that went like this: "How would your 10 year old self feel about yourself today?"

"I dunno," I say, honestly.

My friends, who should be happy with their lives, said that they would be impressed with the things that they know today and would admire themselves. I think about my idealistic youth and feel like I deeply disappointed him. Especially on how disinterested I am today with political rhetoric or rhetoric in general. There is perhaps one thing that could still impress that younger self, I still believe in God.

But my lack of interest in politics has startled me, especially when my peers slap on Twitter political rhetoric that you could either say is brave or foolish. It's a party-lines thing.

I think what distracted me most from the rallies and petitions is that I feel like it's nonsense. Real good seems to be generated by economical choices, which is where I spend most of my energy now. Telsa, organizations, education, etc. are places that see much of my donation and money spending. Early essayists had also come up with similar conclusions about American politics, especially our elected officials. And somehow I adopted these opinions, thinking to vote rigorously Democrat but say very little about why or what drives me to show up to the ballot each time.

And now I do identify as a Democrat.

So I cannot say I'm totally apathetic. Perhaps I can give myself the consideration that I do spend a great deal of my life dedicated to being 'informed' while not spending enough of it talking to others. I'm quite set in my ways now.

I spend money on organizations that I support intellectually.

And I avoid people, places, and organizations that I do not support.

I refuse to work at places I deem unethical.

Yet I am willing to compromise one minor concern for hope that things may change for the better in the future.


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